Well THIS is a new development!
I just ended up on the elevator (I say trapped, but I’ll try to refrain from being dramatic) with the cute guy that cleans the windows at our office building. And when I say cute…good grief. He’s all tan and dimples and sparkly blue eyes. And he seems to have a really sweet personality too, which just makes him even more attractive. Anyway, I have never attracted attention from men like this. I’ve always wanted to…but today, I nearly had a freakin’ PANIC attack on the elevator with this guy! He was sort of…flirting with me, I guess? I don’t know, I probably misread it and he could just be a really friendly guy, but either way, my heart was thundering in my ears, my stomach was flip-flopping, my face was red, I couldn’t think of anything normal to say to him….
He introduced himself and carried on a conversation on the whole ride. And when I got off the elevator, I turned around and he was watching me walk away and just grinned. It’s a wonder I didn’t start puking all over the place (oops…there’s the drama in me).
Why am I so scared? I just stood there the whole time he was talking wondering WHY he was talking to me…I’ve always been able to talk to guys pretty easily and I’ve never had such ridiculous anxiety over it! This is silly. How am I more insecure now that I’m smaller?????
(Oh, and I’m wearing a size smaller pants today…and they’re kinda loose!)