I'd have had a trickier past few days, really wanting to binge. Not necessarily on the normal junk food I'd eat on a binge, I just felt like I needed to eat a lot, but not because I was hungry. Usually I eat all the fatty, sweet and salty things, but this time it was like I just needed to fill myself up with anything, to the point of feeling uncomfortable.
I had been able to get through the other days and just had a few extra pieces of fruit, but tonight I finally messed up
I had eaten about 1400 calories today and I was done.
So the binge...
I started with eating all the fruit we had, pears, apples, grapes and satsumas. I still felt like I needed to eat more, so trying to stay away from the higher calorie foods I had 3 bowls of porridge, made with water. Then 2 shredded wheats on their own (Yuck!) and 5 Quorn sausages finished with some Ryvitas and pickle/light spready cheese.
I feel terrible now and my stomach aches
I know it could of been worse, but I hate feeling so out of control and that feeling that you just need to be shoveling food into your mouth. I don't even like half of the food.
I'm not sure what made me snap tonight. A guy who I am close to had upset me by something that he did, but it was such a tiny thing. However it made me feel like he was somehow controlling what I did.
So me feeling out of control=eating in such a way that I feel out of control. Does anyone get that at all, because I sure don't