I just got a grade back from one of my classes, and it was not good. I was really upset about it, especially since it's a class that was really important to me, and I thought that I had written a really good final paper. I was (and still am) totally crushed. I started questioning myself and my abilities, I felt like sh-t.
I didn't use it as an excuse to eat, although it certainly occurred to me more than once. I realized however that eating now would only make me feel worse about myself.
To get onto the topic of weight and weight loss, this experience made me realize something. I've been overweight most of my life--I'm used to it. I've gotten over it, for the most part, and day to day, I don't feel useless, hopeless, etc as a result of my weight. But this bad grade--it delivered a blow--and I did feel hopeless, useless, stupid, pathetic, etc.
My self-worth is NOT wrapped up in just my weight! I was waaaaay more upset about this grade than I've ever been about my weight. And I was thinking about shows like the Biggest Loser (which I started watching and enjoy) where the people say that they've put their lives on hold because of their weight--and it makes me crazy, because it seems to create this stereotype that overweight people are pathetic and depressed and hopeless because of their weight, and it's just not true for me! I have other things in my life that are WAY more important to me. I've gone out and achieved things that I wanted to achieve, even though I have excess fat on my body--I didn't let that stop me, because it was not related to the goals I wanted to achieve.
So I guess out of the bad comes some kind of good, I learned something from it. And the professor accepted my request to re-write the paper for a better grade, so hopefully I can gain back some of the self-respect I lost!
What do you guys think? Do you feel that your weight holds you back in your whole life (the way they portray it on BL)? Or is it just something that you want to take care of, but that doesn't define how you think and feel about yourself?