bucketwithapurpose - I totally know what you mean about overeating vs. binging... For me, a "binge" is accompanied by a desperate, bottomless feeling--where I just want to eat and eat and eat, but never actually feel FULL. Whereas overeating is more like, you just accidentally forget to be mindful of what you're putting in your mouth, so you give in to your "mouth hunger," i.e.
Mmmm, this tastes really good... Oh sh*t, I just ate 10 slices of bread! Haha. It's *very* hard to tell the difference, because you never know when there might be some emotional stuff lurking below the surface that's making you binge, you know? Basically, I think it's a very fine line between the two, but I know I can always tell the difference for myself... Provided that I'm
honest with myself, heh. So if you truly don't think it was a binge--I'd say it wasn't. Good question!
Danni - Aww, I sooo don't even deserve a compliment like that, heh. But thank you--reading that certainly brightened my day a bit! And you're right, it's really all about feeling comfortable in my own skin... That's why, for the time being, I'm just trying to get back to 153 lbs rather than my old "goal," since I sat around that number for a really long time while I was still losing, and I know that it was around that point that I really started feeling more confident about the way I looked. Ideally, I guess I'd like to get below goal again, but even if I don't I hope I can at least figure out the range of weights where I feel most comfortable. If I'm gonna be doing the maintenance thing, I need to figure out where the "line" is so I know not to let myself cross it again, heh.
Ps. Thank you for posting that poem; I almost teared up a little when I read it!
Definitely relates to our situation...
chloeone - Hey there!
I think I was joining in with you with the constant binging for the past month or so, so hopefully we can help to prop each other up as we STOP binging now! Good luck, girly! Stay strong!
WormwoodDoll - Hey girly!! Good to see you/hear from you/etc... I can definitely relate to how you are feeling right now, so here's to both of us getting back to our all-time lows. We can do it!
(But you knew that...
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Nicki54 -
We have ALL been there, sweetie... ****, I am STILL "there" right with you (believe me), but you (we) have to stay strong!! I can definitely relate to your situation, too--when I'm NOT binging, I'm waaay too restrictive with what I eat, to the point where I barely even have the energy to walk around and I'm always
freezing because I'm eating, like, NO fat. And then my body rebels because I'm obviously not feeding it enough (especially if I'm also exercising a lot while restricting), and before I know it, I'm cramming in thousands of calories of crap that I don't even LIKE... Whereas just a few hours earlier I might have turned down even the tiniest bite of my most favorite food. It really doesn't make any sense, right? But yeah, it certainly happens.
Today is
day 4, and I really am starting to feel stronger--and was *very* happy to be 3.6 lbs down from yesterday. And really, I'm starting to feel my attitude shifting back towards a healthier view of food... Of course, this means that I'm yoyoing back to the more restrictive side of my "cycle," which obviously isn't ideal, but it's gotta be better than binging! Especially since, in the past couple weeks, I probably consumed MORE than enough calories to live off of for a few restrictive days... Once I start feeling bingey again, I'll have to make sure I start eating more, heh. I just hate that it feels like I have to be "all or nothing"--either totally perfect and eating juuuust enough, OR binging blindly with total abandon. Ugh. I don't know when I developed that mindset, cuz I definitely didn't USED to feel that way, but whatever. I *am* getting stronger; I know it.