Okay, so there have been some wicked twists and turns this weekend and I am so exhausted and confused
Saturday the games with hubby were okay, he was helping coach out on the field and I was working the dugout and getting the little boy's helmets on, etc. (that was a hot workout!) and we talked and worked together and it seemed normal, but I had trouble looking him in the face, it would reduce me to tears for some reason so i couldn't look at him.
After the games all **** broke loose, literally! I have cried so much that my entire body and face was swollen and bloated, and I have lost some weight just because I cannot eat anything, just no desire and this sick nervous feeling isn't helpping. So, last night he went to his new home and my daughter wanted to spend the night with him, then at 4AM he called and said she was puking everywhere and he didn't know what to do, so I ended up driving out there. She of course was fine, just ate way too much sugar at the ball park and her friends house, so I stayed there on the couch.
Imagine that! His first night single and he gets thrown up all over by a 7 year old and his ex is sleeping on the couch
I found that quite humorous
he told me today that it scares him to death thinking he has has to do those things now and he realized last night how much I do that he doesn't know how to handle but will have to handle now and that scares him...and he said he realizes how much he takes me for granted and belittles my job at home with the kids and he is sorry he did that for 8.5 years.
We have really connected and grown closer this weekend, had a lot of cries and he is being very supportive and says he loves me more than the world which is why he needs to do it...and he is hoping it will be a sepaaration for awhile, not a divorce.
I am not sure. I'm confused and just will have to see what it brings in the future. I love him and it just kills me to know he is gone, like physical pain and all, but it is done now. I am going to just focus on myself and let him do the same and we'll see what comes of it.
60 minute walk today...getting back to it.
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Originally Posted by Koshinogi
off to do some strenuous moving of my motorbikes and have a minivan to lift into the garage as its got no wheels on at the moment oh joy!!
You just amaze me at the things you do, girl!
for dropping another size.
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Originally Posted by UrthWurm
[FONT="Trebuchet MS"]Is there any chance I could get someone's opinion on my new avatar?
I really like the avatar and was wondering if it was really you! I think you should leave it, it's good...and don't belittle your efforts today with the exercise! It's a start, now let it lead to a repeat tomorrow and the day after, and on and on. Let success build upon itself.