I forget when I joined this forum, but I never really posted because, well, I'm pretty shy about dieting - seems like all my friends either lose weight without trying or just don't care about their weight. Either way, it seems like no one understands and I generally keep it to myself.
But I'm at a point now where I need to be in contact with people who get it, and who will help keep me on track (even just by knowing that they're reading my posting) without judging me or being disgusted by me.
I've gained something like seven pounds this past month, and that's not counting the extra weight I've put on over the past six or eight months. I was doing well without gorging, but now it's like I've lost all the self-control I acquired. Burgers, pizza, fries, ice cream, peanut butter (my biggest weakness!)...and none of the ability to stop after just a little.
I try to just not have it in the house, but I live with other people who buy it, and if it's there, I'll eat it. For a while that wasn't the case, but right now, it is. And, well, sometimes I go out and buy it for myself.
I guess I don't really have a point, except that I realize that I need to change. But I don't know how, I don't know what the heck to do, because all I can see is the inevitable setbacks, and worse, when I get to the point where I just have to keep dropping calories from my diet just to stay at the same weight, let alone lose anything, and. I don't know. I guess I'm overwhelmed. Thanks for listening.