So...I had decided I was going to lose 10 lbs before I tried online dating...I swore it. But...I signed up prematurely. I guess I'm lonely...tired of doing everything by myself...going to the movies by myself, shopping by myself, avoiding "sit down" restaurants because I have no one to go with, coming home to an empty house every day with noone but my dog. :/
Ok. Well, now I've met this seemingly awesome guy off there, we've been talking a lot through AIM for like 3 weeks...some nights for 3+ hours. He just seems like such a cool guy, we have a lot in common. He's never met anyone off "the internet" before...I have(they didn't go incredibly well). Met two guys off the internet...one lead to a short relationship of two months, the other we never spoke after that meeting. But we didn't exchange so much time and communciation those times, they went meet online, talk online, talk on the phone and meet in person---usually all within a week and a half. I know it was foolish of me to let myself get so attached to this *one* guy without having even met him in real life yet...
So he wants to meet this week. Great, right? I'm excited...I know it's silly, but I feel so self-concious about myself! Like what if he's disappointed with me? Years of being overweight has really taken a toll on my self-esteem. I know I've made so much progress though...I really do feel "pretty" and "accomplished" when I wear some of my new outfits...but then I start thinking of the fact that *he* doesn't know how far I've come. He doesn't know all I've gone through. He doesn't know that I'm in a near constant state of transition--always working towards a goal.
I know. If he's not into me the way I am, he's not worth it and I shouldn't give him another thought. I also realize that *I* might not like *him* when I meet him. This is stressful! Ahh!!! lol