Ok, so long story short.. I found out my boyfriend watches porn even though we have a very active sex life and he says he loves me. I really feel at this point that I should stop eating completely.
I told him of my plan to lose thirty pounds and he claims that is far too much. Still.. How is that too much? I feel nasty and unattractive knowing he watches girls on the internet with perfect bodies. I told him how I felt about it and he said he still loves just me and that every guy does it only for quick relief.. And most guys are lying if they say they don't. He also added that he feels he can't be honest with me in the future because of how I reacted. I feel ashamed of myself and nasty around him now.
When I told him I was going to lose thirty pounds as quickly as possible, he said, "How about only 15? We can compromise and I will only watch half as much porn." I feel the need to lose more than 15 pounds even more because of that statement because it validates the fact that I am too fat and unattractive now if he will only watch half as much porn later on once I look half as good as I could be if it was thirty pounds.
I am not eating today.
How do you guys feel about porn with SO's?