Hi everyone
I know that the username is new but I've been around here for a while. I wanted to re-introduce myself! So here's my deal, I started with 3fc in 2006, I lost close to 50lbs and now have been going through some tough times (no excuse I know) but the result has been that I've gained it all back save 5lbs. There have been some incredible stresses going on in my life, but this morning I woke up and decided to just start fresh. New name here, new start on fitday, new goals. A total clean slate. I was starting to hide behind all of the baggage I've been holding on to and making excuses and I just felt like I couldn't come out from under that thumb. I am right now at 235 and I'm making an ultimate overall goal of 135. 100lbs even. To start with my first 'mini goal' is to lose 10lbs by Halloween.
As far as my plan, I log on fitday, count calories, I'm avoiding refined sugars and processed food as much as possible. My ultimate goal is to eat healthy food that I enjoy in reasonable amounts so that this isn't a 'diet' but a 'new maintainable lifestyle' I'm also cutting alcohol for the most part out of my diet, and am actively going to quit smoking. I know it's a lot to do at once, but I'm an all or nothing gal...and judging by the whole lot of nothing I've been doing for a while now it's time for a whole lot of something! I'm going to just take it day by day, knowing that the first couple of weeks are the hardest. Today I will not eat any chocolate in my office, I will not smoke, I will drink lots of water and tea instead of water and wine and I'll go to the gym (slowly re-building up an exercise routine).
I've done nothing but be off track and be very unhealthy in my day to day life with everything for months now...bad food, no control, no real exercise, alcohol in excess, smoking etc and I've started to lie to myself about it and make excuses about it so that is the real reason for the fresh start everywhere. No baggage, no excuses, clean slate, fresh motivation. I really just don't want to feel fat, depressed, self conscious, exhausted and embarrassed and I remember how good it felt when I was losing and sleeping and feeling healthy and I want that back.
I'm sure some of you will figure out who I am, especially the folks that I've been posting with under my other handle for a couple of years. I'll certainly confirm for you if you want to know, but please ask in a PM. Don't worry, I'm going to deactivate my other account and name and there will be no more posts from there. I just feel like there was so much mentally that I have been holding onto for so long that has ultimately road blocked me from truly succeeding. I need to close a chapter and release all my baggage in order to move forward with my life. Cheers to a new chapter!