Hi I'm Nadia... new here clearly.
I'm kind of a professional skier... all my life I've been ridiculously fit, been 5'8" since I hit 13, the weight never went over 155 of pure muscle til I had my first knee surgery, then it hit 165. 7 more knee surgeries later and I'm at 204. Highest ever being 211. I need to get back down to 170 or so, with the amount of muscle I have I feel 170 would be perfect. I have a problem with emotional compulsive overeating. I excersize a LOT but it doesnt matter when you stuff your face...
here are some shots. (nevermind I cant post photos yet.)
THIS ONE WAS THE WAKE UP CALL. I was second in a skiercross at tremblant and my face looks sooooooooooo fat. Huge cheeks.
I was 211 in those photos, Im down to 204 now... still a long was off where I need to be, but I just want to cry.
Right now none of my pants fit, Ive got cellulite in places there has never been. I've been skiing a lot, playing hockey and doing 30 of cardio every day... NONE of my pants fit. I can't even buy jeans big enough, they done come bigger than 32 here in canada. I feel disgusting.
I think I've been in denial. I can feel the fat under my chin as I sit here typing in bed. I used to run a lot, but i cant anymore with my knees, they're too damaged.
I know muscle weights a lot more than fat, but the fact that I've packed on over 60ibs in the last few years is unacceptable... and I'm sick of it. This is kind of a cry for help...
I seem to loose 10-12 ibs then gain it back, never making actual progress...