I've lost all my motivation. Even the "special guy" I was trying to impress, I finally got down right mad at, and had a huge fight with him, and he hasn't said word to me in 3 months. I doubt he'll ever talk to me again. Even if he does, he proved to me what kind of guy he really is, which is really sad, because I knew he was better than that. So there went all hope for that.
I just can't get myself to follow plan, and exercise. I'm constantly eating everything in sight, (with the exception of last week when I had the flu, and lost a few pounds).
Part of this may be due to the fact that I've been working full time at 2 different jobs, which has got me working 6 12 hour shifts a week. Currently I'm on night shift, which is really depressing me, because I eat alot when I'm on night for some reason.. And I never get to do anything fun, and never get to see the sunlight!! Seriously, I haven't seen the daylight for 8 straight days now. Half the time I don't know what day it is anyway.
I need help, support, and motivation more now then ever. I don't know how to get my time scheduled in a way that I could exercise. I don't have time to cook anything because I'm constantly running from one job to the next. When I get home all I want to do is sleep. By the time I wake up its time to get dressed and go back to work. Stopping at the gas station for food.
I'm almost done with my night shift rotation, and as of Feb. 1 I'm done at one of my jobs, so life won't be so crazy. But what do I do in the mean time? I'm sick of wasting time....
Guess I just needed to vent a little... I'm open to suggestions!