last night was soooo hard.it was the first night ya know??? today i thought of him but not a too too much. thank you guys so so much , you have no idea how much your words are helping me. i honestly wouldnt be able to handle this without you . i have no one else to talk too. i've been thinking a lot, and he isnt right for me. he kept saying he needs a break to work on him so he can make our relationship work later on. but his first night on working on him after three years of being sober , which i helped him get. he went out and got drunk off his a$$ . so i guess THATS who he is when he isnt with me , and thats not the type of man i want. but its still hard to convince my heart of that.
EZ MONEY- THANK YOU DARLIN' I USED TO GO TO CHURCH ALL THE TIME .I THINK ITS ABOUT TIME I GOT CLOSE TO GOD AGAIN.I NEED HIM. YOUR WORDS ARE SO ENCOURAGING. ABOUT MY STANDARDS. HONESTLY I DONT THINK I COULD CHANGE IF I TRIED
JUST NOT ME. BUT YOUR ARE RIGHT ABOUT THE FRIENDS THING . I JUST GET SO LONELY SOMETIMES. ITS REALLY HARD TO FIND PURE PEOPLE IN LA, GOOD PEOPLE. WITH GOOD MORALS. BUT BETTER TO STAND ALONE THEN BE DEFEATED BY CLONES. THANK YOU.
AYMSTER- I USED TO BE SUCH A NATURE KID TOO. IT STOPPED WHEN I STARTED DATING HIM. I THINK A HIKE WOULD DO ME SOME GOOD . SOME TIME TO REFLECT IN PEACE . . .
STILLTRYIN- YOUR RIGHT MOVE UP. THE NEXT GUY WILL BE BETTER SUITED FOR ME RIGHT???
SLASHNL- ALL THE TIME TO DISCOVER WHAT IS BEST FOR ME. . . . I REALLY NEED TO REMEMBER THAT. . . .
I THINK MY QUOTE FOR THIS BREAK UP WILL BE "ITS BETTER TO BE HATED FOR WHO YOU ARE, THEN LOVED FOR WHO YOUR NOT."
I THINK MY IDEA IS , TO REALLY KEEP MYSELF ENTERTAINED , AND BUSY. IF HE WORKS THINGS OUT ON HIS OWN AND HONESTLY CHANGES . WE'LL SEE THEN. BUT I NEED A FEW MONTHS. I THINK IM GOING TO TRY DATING , IVE NEVER REALLY DATED BEFORE. . . SO I THINK I SHOULD EXPERIENCE IT. BUT I MAY BE BACK ON HERE TO BUG WHEN IM FEELING DOWN AGAIN, THE DAYS GO BY OK , HARD BUT NOT MISERABLE. BUT THE NIGHTS ARE THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER HAD TO DEAL WITH. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!! YOU HAVE SAVED MY SANITY.