Hi all! How is everyone doing? Alright, I hope.
I'm sorry I haven't been around in awhile. Work has been extremely busy, and I of course been in one of my blue fogs lately mood wise. Had to get my head on straight. I had to take a really hard look at myself last night and come up with some conclusions. My weight has just been going up and up, and it has to stop. I am an emotional eater anyway, but ever since September 11th (the date of the attacks and also mine and dh's wedding anniversary), I have been a mess. I am nervous and upset all the time, and it is coming out in what I eat. Well...yesterday we got some shirts in that work gave us. I have been wearing a 3x, but they were out. Well, I got a 4x. And although it is a little big on me, it is not as big as it should be! I also bought some 3x mens shirts to wear for winter yesterday. I didn't try them on until I got home, and they are getting tight around the middle! This has to stop. I cannot continue to just keep getting bigger and bigger. So I tried hard to sit down and take a look at myself and what I want, without self pity or self recrimination. Here is what I came up with:
1) I want to be healthy. Not just skinny, because you can be skinny and not healthy, but fit and healthy.
2) There has to be a balance. Overeating makes you fat, but starving doesn't work either. I have to find my balance.
3) Exercise is a must. I cannot be healthy without exercise. Period.
Okay, I know. These revelations are nothing new. I've probably posted them a thousand times in this group before. But evidently there is something to it, or I wouldn't keep coming up with the same thing.
Sooooo...I'M BACK!! I hope you can accept me back into your warm graces yet again. I know I can't do this without your support, as I keep figuring out every time I stop posting. To all my friends here who keep taking me back despite my craziness...1fralick, JacobsMommy, Jennifer,Nasus, just to name a few...thank you for sticking by me. Maybe one of these days I will get the hang of it.
Okay, enough babbling. Here I go again....
HUGS!
M'Chelle
288/288/283 (5lbs at a time)