First of all let me introduce myself! I am a 29 year old stay at home mother to two daughters! They are 3 and 2 years old. I have been married for 9 years now going on 10 next year!
As a child I have never had a weight problem. I was a size 7 to a size 9 throughout high school. However I did start putting on weight in the summer of 1990! I was 18 years old and losing weight was the easiest thing for me to do when I would put on the pounds. Then when I turned 23 I really started to put on the pounds and before I knew it I had two children in 98 and 99 and now I weigh 280! I have managed to gain 140 pounds in the 12 years that I have been with my husband (we dated for the first 3 1/2 years)been with him since I was 16! Well in the beginning of my marriage it was hard for my husband to cope with me putting on weight. Then after a year of two with hard times he finally started just loving me for me. I think that is when I really began to feel comfortable and then just let myself go! Now it has come to a point that my husband is very frustrated for the simple fact that I don't take care of myself or my body. I have totally given up on myself!! He is even threatning to leave me if I can't get this under control. He is the best man and father you ever want to meet and know and so I know that he this isn't what he wants to do because he has stressed the many times. He has told me a numerous amount of times that he loves me more than anything in this world but he can't continue to stay by my side if I continue to keep hurting myself by becoming uncontrollably fat!!! Please I am at my wits end. I have no clue on how to even begin to think of losing all this weight! I don't want to lose my husband because he is my life as well as my daughters!!!!! I am so deeply hurt and so deeply angry at myself that sometimes I wish my life could just end like that. But I have family that is my heart and I couldn't even phathom the thought!!!!!!! Thanks for reading this far!