so, i admit i have had/do have issues with binging and purging. i go up and down with how well i am doing, as i think everyone does.
i went on vacation and away from my usual routine this week. my parents took me out to a large italian dinner and of course, gorged myself. breadsticks, cheese sticks, italian bread in olive oil, pasta, meatballs, breaded chicken...
of course after the meal i could barely move i was so full and i was shocked by my very first reaction... "wheres the exlax?" ....
i was stunned.
in the past it was always something i thought about and had to work myself up to do and this time, i just wanted it. i didnt have any, didnt go get any, let it pass and went back on plan the next day. but it was a frightenly "easy" answer.
i realize it doesnt do anything for weight loss really it is just in my head that it does, but still....
anyone else ever realize the moment when they knew binging and purging was becoming too "natural"...?