It never ceases to amaze me how my most secret thoughts and fears are ones that you have all felt with me! It's a very, very, VERY reassuring thought. No matter how alone I have felt in my fat it was a false sense of aloneness....because there were always people around who knew what I was feeling. It's very therapeutic to be able to put things down like this.
Hairdressers - I just hated seeing my face when my hair was all wet and pulled back....I like hiding under hair.
Airplanes - seatbelts feeling so tight....having to pull them all the way out and seeing about 10 inches of leftover belt hanging of your seatmate. Also, not being able to bring down the tray so just pretending you aren't hungry and thirsty.
Invitations - Oh my, YES! What do I wear? Will I be the fattest one there? The only outfit I can find looks like it's off an episode of "The Golden Girls" (you know....the long skirts and lonnnngggg shirt or jacket in some kind of lame fabric).
Outdoor/pool parties - Being the only one NOT in a suit...and being in pants or capris, to boot since you don't wear shorts. Stuffing down into a lawn chair. Having the sides digging into your legs.
I'm sure we could all go on and on.....I'm so glad it's ending!!!!