My weight loss Story
I've always felt too heavy, I wasn't a fat child, or even a heavy child. I was short and strong for my age, but I felt fat because I weighed more than my skinny cousin and had thick thighs to boot. My high school years were spent at a boarding school where the food was very starchy and fatty and diets were forbidden unless you were under doctors' orders. At that school I learned that losing weight meant starvation and skipping meals.
After I graduated I was depressed. The doc put me on Elavil and I gained a lot of weight. I wasn't eating a lot but I was sleeping twenty hours a day. I could barely function. I stopped the Elavil and stopped seeing the shrink. I desperately wanted to lose weight.
I went to Weight Watchers. My metabulism was so messed up that I gained weight on their 1200 calorie diet. I never went back after the second week. I joined an exercise class but quit when the instructor wouldn't let me use the weights because most new people couldn't and they couldn't make an exception for me.
In my early twenties I was anorexic, weighed about 90 pounds and wore a girls' size twelve jeans. I got that small by eating no more than 400 calories a day, exercising for hours on end and taking mega doses of laxatives.
Not healthy, I know, but it worked.
Then life intervened and I got sidetracked from dieting. Slowly my weight crept up. I got stressed and starting drinking, My weight crept up more. From time to time I tried the old starvation, laxative route but I couldn't stick to it. At work I met a man whom I am still sharing my life with, nineteen years later. I stopped watching my calories strictly but somehow I didn't gain a lot of weight. I maintained. I wasn't fat but I wasn't thin and I was miserable.
Over the years my weight has gone up and down. It's gone up when I've been stressed and down when I've been focused. I haven't been focused for a while and right now I'm about 140 pounds ( a lot when you're as short as me). I would like to lose about 30 pounds but I'll be happy with fifteen.