I am so sad and angry right now, I am in the process of mourning/grieving. A friend of mine bought me the cutest teddy bear hamster about a week ago and I had her for just over a week. She was the cutest, sweetest little munchkin, and I took her to a local vet for a check-up, and this vet said she was healthy, which was reassuring but she didn't check Cashmere's teeth. So, that vet visit was on Saturday and over the past few days she had been much more lethargic, not eating or drinking much at all. Last night, I was so worried about her because she hadn't had any water since morning, and it was evening. She tried to eat but had trouble with it, she was curled in a ball, had a staggered like walk when she tried to move almost like someone who was drunk, then she fell and I took her immediately to the local emergency vet.
They were so nice there and I was fearing the worst. They put Cashmere on a heating pad and tried to forcefeed her but she wasn't responding well. I had a lengthy discussion with the vet who said that she was older than 9 weeks, what I was told at the pet store and that her teeth were yellowed and overgrown, thus preventing her from eating.
She let me know that she may not pull through, and when I got home, I called her, Cashmere's condition had worsened. After a lot of tears and heartache, I asked this vet if she thought it would be humane to euthanize her, she said that it was the right thing to do.
Now I don't know what to do with her body, I could get her cremated and keep her ashes, which I very well may, but it will make me so sad to look at her box or urn whenever I come home. The vet also has a communal cremation process available too. I am thinking that maybe I can get her cremated, keep the ashes and I am considering pouring her ashes over a local body of water. There are a few rivers or lakes near here, maybe if I did that I would feel that I had actually got to say goodbye to beloved Cashmere.
I am in so much awe, I am shocked as to all of this and I am so angry that she had to suffer, yet there are so many questions left unanswered. How old was she- really? Did she have wet tail before I bought her? Did I do the right thing by adopting her, the pet store claimed that she was with siblings and her mother.
I will never know the answers to any of these questions, but I tried. I really tried and I really wanted the best for my baby. I only had her for about a week and I have since been frantically contacting her regular vet, emergency vet and pet store because I want some sort of resolution here although I don't know what that will be.
For anyone who has read this far, God bless you. I am heartbroken and griefstricken but I know that in my heart, she was meant to be my baby, even if just for a week. May she rest in peace.
Thanks for reading.