So it's been almost a week that I've been trying to pull myself out of a funk.
Last Friday my partner was laid off from work, leaving me the only breadwinner for a household of 3. My income wouldn't cover the mortgage even if I didn't have other financial responsibilities, which I do have and can't suspend.
Our income has dropped by 2/3. And it will drop more because I will be paying for his health insurance as well, so I'll bring home even less each month.
Unemployment hasn't been much help-in addition to not getting it yet, they are telling him that his amount is less than what I am making (and keep in mind he made double plus what I make.) Basically he'll be getting every month what he used to make (gross) in a week.
He's applying everywhere and I'm looking for anything (a better paying job, a second job) to boost our finances, but I just feel so scared and stressed. And I feel terrible asking people for energy/good thoughts because we lost our "cushy" status (despite that we didn't really have that much to spare.)
It's also totally quashed my ability to focus on losing weight, all I want to do is eat away my anxiety and my energy is in the dumps because I'm not sleeping so it's such a struggle to exercise.
Part of me wants to be positive (so not my nature) and part of me just wants to have a pity party (partly this rant.)
I'm really trying to think that everything will be okay and that he'll find work before our finances get critical, but I don't really have experience with having things turn out okay. I want to curl up and cry all the time.
Ugh. I feel pathetic too, posting this, but I need to get it out of me so I can get past all my jumble of feelings.
Thanks for reading.