Well, today is day 2 ... I've done very well (even at the b'day party AND the Super bowl bash!!) .. I stayed with munching on veggies (no dip) and water with lime slices in it. My friends daughter made nice sized chocolate chip cookies from scratch (MY FAVORITE!!), bagged up about 8 of them and told me she made them "especially for me" ... I brought them home so my husband and son could enjoy them, and put them in the bread drawer.
Well today after work I was home (alone) getting ready to cook dinner .. I went into the bread drawer to take out a small roll for my chicken burger, and there they were! The bag of cookies ... just smiling at me and calling my name! i was determine NOT to go near them .... and the next thing I knew, I had taken a bite out of one!!!!!! (You see, I am TRULY addicted to food) .. so, I quickly realized what I was doing, and gave the rest of my cookie to my Bichon Sally (she loved it!), and a teeny piece to my 2 Yorkies Juliet & Henry (they loved it too!). I was upset that I had no control and was so blinded by a friggin COOKIE! .. but VERY proud that I got rid of it as fast as i did.
Now, here's the weird part:
When my husband came home .. I asked him nicely if, when he was having his after dinner cup of coffee, he might want to have a cookie or two; I told him I was giving the rest to our son, Daniel (he's 20, in college, & lives home) so that he would eat them (and get them out of my sight!) and believe me, Danny and his friends will finish them off in about 5 minutes! ... well, my husband looked up at me with this sort of disgusting look on his face and said, " Just leave them in there, whats the big deal ... why are you making this such a problem". (All the time with that 'face' and rolling his eyes, etc..)
I FREAKED OUT! ... Told him it WAS a big deal to ME .. I said "We've been together over 22 years, but in case you haven't noticed - I HAVE A PROBLEM CONTROLLING MYSELF AROUND FOOD" .. Told him how difficult it was for me to admit my downfall .. and how happy I was that I could finally admit this to someone .. and how DARE he make me feel like I was weak & had no self control.
I feel like I opened myself up only to get punched down .. but, I proudly haven't done my "usual" (which is to say "f-it" and eat ALL the cookies - or whatever..). I had my chicken burger on a diet roll with a tsp catsup, and a large greens salad with 3 sliced strawberries and a few pumps of fat free salad spray.
Thanks for letting me vent
Sometimes it makes you feel better to get it off your chest ... and I'm sure a few of you can relate.
Toy - I also have Yorkies .. my two are tiny ones (and I love them with all my heart!).
Sara, I had the chocolate pecan bar today as well ... and yes, it IS delicious! Everything I've had so far is SO much tastier than MF meals.
Talk to you tomorrow friends (keep me in your prayers)