Charlene,
Honey, you've come to the right place. The best thing that you ever did for yourself and your family was to go to that meeting. Those people at that meeting completely, and I mean completely, understood what you were feeling.
If you got any phone numbers at the meeting, call them until you get a hold of someone, and tell them that you need help getting started.
Getting a sponsor involves finding someone who has what you want and asking them how to get it. You do that by listening to people speak and finding someone who is available. When you find a sponsor, remember that they were a train wreck too when they first came to OA.
Everyone has a different eating plan. The eating plan is the least of your problems right now. You need to get your hands on a copy of the OA 12 Steps and 12 Traditions and read step one. Then, read it again. You can order it from
www.oa.org or amazon. Either way, get it quick.
I can be your temporary sponsor until you find one if you would like. If so, your first writing assignment is this:
In OA we are encouraged to take a good look at our compulsive eating, obesity, and the self destructive things we have done to avoid obesity--the dieting, starving, over-exercising, or purging. Here is a first step inventory of my compulsive eating history:
Keep writing until you've written everything.
I'm here for you. Also, there are online OA meetings every three hours around the clock at
www.therecoverygroup.org
You can post here or send me a private message. Up at the top of this page it says "welcome charlenej" Underneath you can click where it says "private message".
Step 1 is: We admitted we were powerless over food-- that our lives had become unmanageable.
Notice that step1 starts with "We" not "I". We know how you feel. We know your desperation and pain. We know how it feels to be driven to continue putting food in our mouths even when we are no longer hungry, even when we are stuffed, even when we don't want to eat any more.