"I am totally responsible for being weak."
First, I hope it's ok if I address this statement. It seems like you're blaming yourself. OA takes the blame away. You wouldn't blame someone for having Cancer and the same is true here. We are addicts and that is not a moral issue. We're not weak or bad or any other negative term. This is not something we have asked for and would never wish upon anyone. So I hope it's ok that I made this long comment about it. I have also had these types of self judging statements and I actually felt very free when I read Step 1 in the OA 12 step book: 12 steps and 12 traditions of Overeaters Anonymous. I highly recommend you read it if you get a chance. Perhaps you can find it for free online but they should sell it for a small fee at some of the meetings.
I don't let myself eat the foods I can't manage. I do have favorite foods that are yummy and don't lead me to a place I really don't want to go to...the place were I binge and my life feels out of control. I feel so much better that even though there are times when I get terrible cravings, I know that one bite is never enough. I have the disease of more. I just want more and more and more so it's best if I never take that first bite.
That said, I have had a relapse where I went down that road and now I"m getting myself back. I don't know if I"ll have sugar and flour again, but I do know that I won't have it today.
Ok, so everyone is different, but I'm very happy to share a typical day of my food plan. It's not exactly how others would eat but I just like weird stuff.
Breakfast: (I try to postpone breakfast to 9am)
1/2 cup quick oats, cinnamon, stevia for sweetness, but some people will cut up a banana or 1/2 banana
Lunch:
Salad with protein like chicken or fish. OA recommends 6 oz. of protein but since measuring gets me into my restrictive thinking (which isn't healthy), I just have about 2 scoops of protein
Snack:
A lot of people don't snack and some have an optional snack. I do snack although I was able to go without a snack when I first started.
1 container of Fage Greek 0% fat yogurt with celery and salsa or with 1 gluten free, sugar free wrap. Or I will have a handful of pistachios and an apple.
Dinner:
1 plate of food that is either salad with protein and a bowl of soup that i've made (I love making split pea soup...it's so easy and tastes great...let me know if you want the recipe) or last night I had baked chicken with baked eggplant. The point is that it's one plate of food. No seconds.
That's it. There were times I wanted to eat so bad and I was climbing the walls so I just chewed gum or I let myself have a fruit, but usually I was able to say, don't worry, your next meal is coming. You will not die.
It helps to read the OA literature or call someone or meditate.
I hope you've found this helpful. Sending you hugs.