We admitted we were powerless over food — that our lives had become unmanageable.
I am a compulsive eater. I am admitting here that I am powerless over food. My life, in some ways, has become unmanageable. I have made some decisions to change things though.
I have recently quit drinking, smoking pot, and now I am focusing on not binge eating.
Last night, I ate everything in sight after calling it a "cheat day", but I think that I know my cheat days are a little more than "I had ice cream".
I am powerless in front of food. Sugar, cookies, pizza, if my stomach wants them, my stomach will have them.
But I think the issue is more in my mind, and that is what I am going to try to do here as I work through these steps for overeating.
Now that I finally quit drinking and smoking, I am seeing that I do have issues when it comes to emotional eating. I do it, and I do it frequently. I'm trying to learn how to be more present in the moment, how to eat less.
Binge eating is a way for me to cope with things---yes. I don't know what it is about eating a giant bowl or FIVE of food that makes me feel better---but it does---and it scares me. I want to know that I have control, and that's why I have started this program.
When I get to the second step, I'll post it here and tell you all how I am working through it.
It's probably good to just soak up this confession I have made:
I admit that I am powerless over food and my life has become unmanageable.