Ok so I have been on Jenny Craig for a year now. The first year in nine months I went from 301 to 216 then I went home for the summer. My home being a comprised of Italian overeaters who cook like Mario Batalli and eat like Tony Soprano. So I would cheat at least twice a week but managed through increased activity to stay below 230. Coming back to college at about 227 august of this year.
Then I was down to 217 again but for the past two weeks have been binging and overeating and now I am once again 226 going between 226 and 223 every two weeks. Cheating at least once a week eating Subway sandwich with chips or Chipotle burritos with chips and buying Twixs and/or shortbread cookies. I will like buy a jumbo pack of candy and eat it in one night and feel horrible.
My first year I also worked out a great deal more on average I worked out 5 days a week for an hour and a half. Drank 3 liters of water, one of which with lemon and no soda. Now, no soda still but I get to the gym three days a week it lucky. I never cheated when at university. I would even go out to dinner with people and just sit and have ice tea while they ate. Now my will power has totally disappeared.
I typically alternate between overeating/binge eating and eating within portion. However, I find myself rationalizing the binges by citing my "good" behavior. I am really worried because I have been heavy all my life and have a skewed perception of portion size in general. Plus, I am going back home for about 4 weeks one of which will be spent in New York where I gained 5 pounds in the middle of my first year on Jenny but lost them. I think I am thinking about food way to much.
I guess I feel like I may be falling back off the wagon and don't want to but am having a hard time bring up the will power. Even tonight I had a bowl of matzaball soup and a knish. Plus, about 6 bagels spaced out over the whole day and my Jenny breakfast, lunch and anytime bar. And pudding.