on the edge of a binge, I think
I have strep throat and feel icky. I have been very diligent in counting calories these past 2 months (since I started OA). I try to stay below 1800 calories a day, and now I've eaten 1986 calories for today. I've had a sprite, but I refuse to count calories for it, just for today, since I'm taking it for my throat and tummy, lol. It doesn't even taste great to me, which is a nice touch for me!
My appetite has been spotty and finicky today, so I snacked more, but on healthy items I would normally eat. I did have beef and broccoli from the local Chinese place, but I ordered it with plain steamed rice and no egg rolls or anything.
I don't plan on eating anything else today, except a cup of tea later. My question is, do I have to consider this a day of binging? It doesn't feel like and old binge day for me, because I still avoided trigger foods and watched my portions pretty well. I snacked when I wasn't exactly hungry because keeping food in my stomach makes me less queasy (thanks, antibiotics).
I think I'm freaking out because this is my first "threat" to my food abstinence I've experienced since joining OA. Now that I've written down what I've eaten, I feel responsible and empowered again.
Did I fail?
Last edited by chickybird; 09-22-2010 at 01:09 AM.