It was extremely hard for me to come to terms with my eating disorder. I successfully abstained from using crystal meth for 5 years, however, now I've traded one habit for another. Actually, I increasingly began gaining substantial amount of weight during my recovery, and only very recently realized this . My self esteem became considerably lowered, and I began avoiding mirrors , as a result i was able to hide from myself the truth about my changing body. Up to 4 years ago i'd never been overweight in my life, actually the opposite, however my drug use screwed my eating, sleeping, and metab making it even harder for me now to lose it. This is extremely frustrating, i've been battling my out of control eating, and weight slides for 4 years and i'm so sick of falling behind yet another time ... The drug problem was actually way easier to kick compared to my problems with food now.. Still i remain determined despite the hundreds of failed attempts , I just never imagined this could be soooo hard .. I just want to get back to my original average weight, not supermodel perfect, but what's was right for me...
I commend all of you for trying to overcome this affliction , rather it be binging or being an overeater like myself