You don't say if you have a sponsor. If you do let her guide you if you don't I would suggest you find a sponsor before you go any farther in the program. For me I tried to work this program alone, then with God and me and it just doesn't work till you let others into your life. It's hard to let others in and it's hard to "feel" now that the food is out of the way so we need help with it.
Are you attending OA meetings? If so ask someone to be your sponsor and they can help you, for me that was and is the best rode to follow.
Together we can do what we couldn't do alone.