that's so funny!
i do the exact same thing.
in fact i posted something so similar about my trip to the grocery. Here, i originally posted it in my 'just for today" thread:
i want chips and guacamole.
(no, you have fish defrosting at home that's going to go to waste if you don't eat it.)
I'll just start tomorrow. i did good yesterday, maybe i can just do every other day.
(No, you're never going to have loose pants again if you think that way.)
I'll get organic chips and salsa.
(That's still over eating.)
(Remember, you want to be thin.)
Maybe i really want chips and guac.
(If i overeat, i'm just going to waste the rest of the evening doing nothing.
Don't i want to be free of this eating obsession?)
Maybe i'd rather just escape life altogether, give me some chips and guac.
(How can i not find anything to enjoy in life beside food? wouldn't i be happier if i ate well?)
chips! chips! chips!
(*sigh, this is already so hard for me, why am i making it harder? Just stick to your healthy dinner plan. You don't need to temp yourself with visions of chips and dip.)
I put parenthesis around my "sensible" voice
but it's still the same bantering in my head, and i've had similar dialogues to what you posted.
It get's easier. one day you'll overcome it. and from there it gets easier. The first few times are hard.
but remember, if win over the nagging voice once, and stay on plan, it will be easier next time.
The best predictor of future behavior is past behavior. So, once you've stayed on plan one day, you're more likely to repeat that and stay on plan in the future. it may go slow, it may be a bumpy road, but it can happen
you will succeed because you want to succeed.