argh, i forgot about my just for today!
So i stopped at the supermarket and got some food, some of which was a bag of cashews. errrgh. i don't know how many i ate, not the whole bag at least, but still probably enough to qualify as over eating
So now i have to fight the urge to just keep eating and snacking the rest of the night and planning to start new tomorrow.
I really don't want to be fat.
I always feel like i can't move on in my life or find true happiness and worth untill i get my diet and body under control.
I try and keep my faith up that someday i will change. someday i'll see results. I hope it isn't too late for me. reading the success stories on here always makes me feel hopeful again.
Some times i just wonder if my metabolism is so slow that the only way i could possibly lose weight would be by following or trying to follow an unrealistically strict diet. and the minute i slip from it i'll gain back all the weight and have to start all over.
I've never been a quitter. I don't have alot of successes under my belt, but i can honestly say i've never really given up hope. I've hit alot of obstacles over the past 5 or so years, so maybe that's how i got to where i am now. but i just have to learn from my mistakes and try a different approach.
Which i am doing, so i should not dispair tonight. things will turn if i just keep making the effort.
Experimenting and exploring different workouts and activities and trying to settle on something that fits in my life, that i enjoy and feel good about and that gets me to loose wieght and be healthy.
sorry for the vent......ugggggggh