thanks for the response. it was definitely insiteful. i think i did need some reassurance to pursue a non-OA avenue. i think it works for a lot of people, but it may not work for everyone.
i remember even hearing that at meetings -- that OA does not work for everyone. i just never thought that i was one of those that it did not work for. (sorry, for ending my sentence with a preposition. i presume you are a teacher.)