I was an OA member for almost a year. I did not quite click with the program, and I continued to pile on weight. I had a major issue with the whole "higher power" thing. Although I believe in a religion that has G-d as its focal point, I don't quite believe in G-d.
Anyway, I was wondering if it is a good idea to become an OA member again if I did not really "get it" the first time around.
I have put on 70 lbs in a year and a half. I was on OA for 2/3 of that time. I was 115 lbs, but now I am 185 lbs. Please let me know if I should pursue the OA thing.
I have one other issue. I feel like the OA meetings that I went to had very opinionated and judgemental people. I am scared to return with all this weight I have gained. I am really, really embarrassed. I feel that the people at my meetings will judge me since I failed. Additionally, I don't have a car and cannot go to meeting placess other than the places I have previously gone.
What should I do? OA or no OA