hi everyone,
just came back, after a great period of denying that i'm a compulsive eater and can manage to get everything in order by myself. well, i can't really. when will i finally come to understand that?
yeah, so after all these oaths and promises made to myself, and even to my friend that i'm not going to have any more sugar and white flour in my life, and that i'll stick with my food plan (just an ordinary restriction diet-no working steps or Higher Power stuff) - that of course failed, sooner or later- i feel i need to give it va proper go, if i don't want to loose god knows how many more yaers to my eating problems. and so here i am, thinking it's nice there are some people with this problem willing to share, although they probably would prefer to not need to be here.
i actually live in Bejing now, China, and i realize what a mistake it was not to go to meetings while living in europe. OA is not very developed here yet i guess, or maybe Chinese people have some gen that prevents this illness
and therefore they don't need it. the closest meetings are here in Shanghai and Hongkong, going where is out of question for me. and so i'll have to wait till i buy a computer and go to on-line meetings.
i binged for last two days, today is so-so, didn't have any sweets but ate too much for lunch. much too much that i had planned. hope i'll do ok for dinner.
good luck everyone too.
hello again :)
