Susie, I wish you all the best, and all the willpower you need to get back on top of this! Thank you for starting this post.
You had the strength to go days at a time. You need to find that strength again. It's possible.
I've had two days of overeating - to the point where my stomach feels stretched and I'm in soo much pain. Here are some of the things that I don't want to forget:
How even drinking water hurt, because it made the junk in my stomach expand.
Worrying that my stomach might burst, because it hurt so much.
Looking at my stomach in the mirror and thinking that I looked like a child in a third world country - huge, extended belly. Or 6 months pregnant and overweight, only in my belly area.
Feeling so sick at the restaurant tonight, that moving made me feel pukey. I could barely focus on the conversation.
Beating myself up so much due to the eating that I can't enjoy my time with DB.
I feel like I partially wasted the last two nights that we are going to be able to share in what could be a while. I didn't enjoy cramming that food down my throat - for the most part, it wasn't even food that I enjoy, and certainly not in those amounts. This is where it stops!
Lots of
s, Susie. Please keep us updated, and come here often for support!