[heathermouse]

I know its supposed to be about the steps and working on the fat in my head to lose the fat in my body and all that crap, but I am really frustrated. I think I'm getting fatter or my weight loss is at a stand still. I have a very healthy eating plan, I'm exersising, but it's taking forever. I get depressed about it and then what do I want to do? You guessed it... eat! So far i'm sticking to my abstinence but old feelings of feeling like I'm a botttom less pit are stating to come up. Life I want to eat my lunch super fast and then I want to keep going and going to fill up the void in my heart. Also sometimes I hate being a mommy!

[cuddlzandhugz]

Hi heather,

I'm sorry it's going so slowly. Maybe you can post your calorie intake per day as well as your exercise routine and someone can give you some advice as to what to do differently.

I wish the weight would just fly off me, I mean I'm working so hard for it! But I guess like everything else worthwhile, it takes time.

And I do believe you should aim to eat like you think you should be eating for the rest of your life and not overly deprive yourself. If you do that the weight loss should just become an added bonus side effect of your new healthy lifestyle (I know, easier said than done, LOL).

Keep going, I know you can do it

[searsha]

Hi Heathermouse,

I loved your honesty. I know those feelings, only last week I was feeling that the fat was going to stay superglued to my bones for all eternity.

I’m in OA, very early days, but my last big ‘diet control regime’ brought me to such a dark horrible place that I could almost cry with gratitude to be eating the way I’m eating today. I can’t believe it. And I’m sure you’ll know what I mean when I say – this new recovery is not down to me. I’m being carried by OA and my HP.

But those feelings of fatness and wanting to yank back the reins of control are waiting to pounce – which is why I really tuned into your share.

I know how to control and how to drop pounds, but I also know that those pounds are stuck on my back again as soon as I’m even in the same county as a high-fat-food-portion! The 3lbs I’ve lost in OA feel like ‘real weight change’ if you know what I mean.

You are doing brilliantly. And I promise you, it will pay off. I’m in AA too, and I KNOW that good things are possible. I thought I would never ever get to a healing place of peace in my sobriety, but I did, and along the way I saw miracles every day.

I love that saying you shared about the fatness in your head – that’s new to me – I’ll bring it to my homegroup, so see how you’ve helped more than one person today.

And yes. Sometimes being a parent feels like the toughest job in history. And even admitting that can make me feel guilty – but you know – when I do let the truth in it blows the cobwebs out, and I get to live and live in a lighter cleaner place.

Best Wishes,

[Magic Flute]

Hi Heathmouse,
I really know what you are talking about and I keyed into what you said about "eat my lunch really fast". I am the same way now I count 30 chews each bite before I swallow, if it is a fruit, say watermelon that takes 15 chews and wow what a difference. Now I taste my food, I am the last one finished and I feel fuller on less food. Just a thought to slow you down. Our disease has many symptoms and eating too fast is one of them.
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