Thanks everybody for the kind words!! It keeps me going.
Oochie Goo: I usually always hate working out AT FIRST, but if I workout regularly for 2 weeks it becomes a more natural feeling. It really does get easier to do the more you do it. It's just those first 2 weeks or so that I have to get over. It's definitely tough to get started and it took me awhile, it was not an instantaneous thing. But once I went to the gym the first night, then the second and third night, it got easier. It is really just a routine now. But it goes the same way if I don't go for more than 2 or 3 days, I start slipping out of the routine. So like Dalai said, I know I have to in order for the weight to start dropping, no ifs, ands, or buts!
Now I kind of have fun working out. It's something I can rely on in my day, and it's a little bit of alone time to think, sweat, and just feel good about what i'm doing. I ALWAYS feel better after a work out. I may feel a little tired, but my lungs are wide open and I don't have the guilt on my shoulders that I would have had I skipped out.
You'll get there! Just go to the bike and start riding, without thinking! If you start thinking about it, heming and hawing, you're giving yourself opportunities to change your mind and turn around.