Back to Normal Ol' Me
I have a very exciting 'non-scale victory' to share.
I've pretty much been overweight all of my life, and about 4 years ago, for the very first time, I actually lost a bunch of it, yay! When that happened, I tapped into this whole new part of myself that I never knew existed. I shed a layer of self consciousness and just started LIVING. But then I gained weight. And I lost that person once again. For the next 4 years.
One day recently, I realized that I was depressed. I didn't want to do anything, I didn't want to see anyone, I wanted to sleep always unless I was eating. Unbeknownst to me, that would turn out to be the big catalyst for my weight loss. I knew precisely why I was unhappy - I felt completely trapped, suffocated by this person who wasn't ME. And I just didn't want to be unhappy anymore. So I made some changes.
Fast forward to now, a few months later and 20 pounds lighter. I'm watching myself transform into that lively person I once knew. I want to DO things, I'm not afraid to take risks, I smile and say 'hi' to strangers on the street. I'm happy and more importantly I'm allowing myself to be happy.
I know, this is long winded. I can't fully express with words what this feels like, but let me tell you -- it's better than ANY number on the scale, even if that number is goal!!
Last edited by xRiotGirl; 04-25-2014 at 12:21 AM.