Finally overweight!
I suppose I was obese since my tween years (which only appeared to be slightly overweight and heavier but nevertheless). I was defiantly tipping the high end of the overweight scale by the time I left school, by the end of my first year in college I was obese again for two years, my mental health was the lowest it ever was and I kept getting sick so looking for an answer I went to my doctor which was quite an ordeal. I finally saw a specialist who just said to me; you're obese. But really I was in denial I thought oh no I can't be that fat I'm only a few stone overweight like I've always been what's the big deal.
For a few years I'd jump on the wii fit every so often, lose some for a week or two and then feel like I was going no where. It was the summer of 2011 I thought I'd use some of my holiday time to finally tackle this bit of weight. It was when I saw you have been using the wii for 1000 days and you are now 200 and something pounds not 180 something that was my reality check. I felt like there were so many things in my life getting me down that I couldn't control, so many people who had done me wrong I thought I have to stop doing this to myself for years comfort eating and avoiding things while giving myself a hard time about losing weight/being overweight so I just thought things can't get any harder or worse if I don't just take the plunge now a year before my 21st (the year I always thought since a teen that I would defiantly be healthy by) I probably would let it slip another five years, and then another.
I know people go on about how weight loss has changed their life and it may not be any miracle cure but I feel like it has helped heal me, balance me, make me feel more complete, more normal, more comfortable, more connected with the world and other people and so many more things.
I still can't believe I can even talk about weight loss, I still have a long way to go but I never thought I could do this. I know I'm at the highest end of the overweight scale and its not something most people would be shouting about but I feel so genuinely happy about it I really felt like sharing my experience.
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