I am so excited- I ran in to Target today and decided to try on some denim capris. I started to pick up a size 12, then remembered that last weekend when I bought a new pair of dress pants they were a 10. I thought when I bought those it was just a fluke, because, while my 12's are not tight, I hadn't thought they were really big.
Anyway I tried 2 pairs of capris in 10 and both were too big. I figured "here we go again" because I ALWAYS seem to be between sizes, and I was sure an 8 would be way too small. Well they WEREN'T. They weren't even tight!!! I can't even describe how happy it made me. I practically cried, and I am not a crier, or a very emotional person normally.
I never in my wildest dreams, when I started this, thought I would hit an 8. I sort of tentatively wanted to be a 10 and didn't even think that was realistic.
Of course an 8 of today is not the 8 that it was years ago but STILL- I'm so excited anyway. My size is a single digit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
You know, I look at myself and I can see I've lost a lot but it hasn't really sunk in. And I don't understand it because I still have plenty of fat hanging on my belly. There is just no way I should be a size 8. It almost scares me and makes me think I'm not seeing reality. People call me "skinny" but I KNOW that I'm not, and of course they just see me in clothes and are comparing- so I'm "skinny" compared to what I used to look like, to them. I am most definitely still fat! How can I be a size 8? I hold them up and they look so tiny, like doll clothes. How the **** am I getting in to them? I'm so confused.
But mostly I'm just ecstatic! That's 5 sizes down! 18 to 8 is TEN NUMBERS lol.
I didn't want to cut the tags off of them. I have looked at the tags 5 times just since this afternoon. I'm kind of afraid I'll see a 1 in front of the 8 and realize I made a mistake!
This makes you crazy, doesn't it? Now I've just spent $40 on stuff I can't even wear to work, and I wasn't going to buy anything brand new until I hit my goal. I've just been getting clothes at Goodwill. But I was insane. I wanted to buy every pair of size 8's in the store!
This was, hands down, the most fun I've ever had in a dressing room in my entire life!!!!!