congratulations! that is wonderful : ) as far as getting upset about the past or "out of control". I used to do that and then get depressed, it wasn't a good way to expend my energy and led to negativity. Besides, that's history now right?
Yesterday is gone, and there is "now". To quote one of my favorite ancient psychologists " I and though, here and NOW" Congratulationsssssssss
keep up the great work.