But now I've lost 51 pounds -- I can hardly believe it! It's been hard work but well worth it. I think it's an improvement overall, but I really want to lose at least 10 pounds... if not another 15-20 -- we'll see.
OK, now for the photos... (pardon the mess in my room, and my hair was a mess! I was very focused on shooting photos. And, if they turn out sideways, I have no idea how to fix that! Sorry about that! Hopefully you get the idea, anyways. )
And -- these are 7s (Mossimo jeans) that I'm rockin' -- hopefully on to size 5 soon!
Thanks, guys! Hopefully in a few more pounds I can lose my BUTT! I am so, so, so sick of it. The husband loves it, but it makes me feel really self-conscious... especially when I'm surrounded by European women who just have a different body type. Maybe I shouldn't, but I just feel out of place.
I'm hoping that the boobs will shrink, too. The highest cup size I ever was before was a C, but now I'm at a 34D. I've been a 32C before, but I don't know if the cup size will come down or what. I guess I kind of want to get rid of the parts that are stereotypically female. I'd just rather be flatter, I guess.
I could also do without the thighs. I swear, I sneeze, and I build muscle there! I don't know how to reverse that other than to lose more weight, but we'll see what happens. I know that I've lost a lot, in a pretty good amount of time, and I'm really proud of that -- it took a lot of hard work! -- but I'm really hoping that losing more will give me the look I'm going for. I'm so tired of feeling pudgy... and actually right now, I'm about to cry, so I'm gonna run along now.
I think I'm going to try to take better quality photos... maybe use an actual camera next time instead of just the phone.
Thanks again for the support! I'm sorry to be Debby Downer in this post -- I just feel really self-conscious right now.
Congrats on your weight loss accomplishments!!! I can relate to your feelings But here are a few things I've grown to realize in my 43 yrs of life:
#1 - This BUTT will NEVER go away...no matter how much weight I lose (and why in the world would I want it to...especially when people are PAYING good money to have one...haha!)
#2 - My thighs will ALWAYS be thick and big in proportion to the rest of my body...they are quite muscular as well...which I actually can appreciate more since I've started running!
#3 - I will never weigh as little as other woman cuz 1) I'll tall, 2)My bones are denser, and 3)Muscle weighs more than fat!
Fivestone - I could post pics of me when I wore a size 6, lean as you wanna think about being, and I absolutely HATED my appearance!?!?! I, like you, was too busy focusing on what OTHER PEOPLE around me looked like and not focusing on my OWN BEAUTY...just the need to be like others.
Honestly...I do mean honestly...I think your body ROCKS!!! Your butt is bangin, legs are pumpin and I can see why your hubby is pleased! I know this matters for little, cuz what's most important is how YOU FEEL about yourself. Please take a look at other woman with similar body types (like beyonce, j-lo, hale berry) and see where you rate in comparison to that...but I really wouldn't compare my body to Christie Brinkley....apples and oranges...ya know what I mean?
Hope this helps a bit and I can't wait to have a body like yours again! Great Job!
joyfulloser -- thanks a lot for your post -- I really needed to hear that. And you're right, no matter how small I've been I've pretty much always had a butt -- that's just my body type. I guess I better learn to accept it and quit comparing.
I guess a lot has been going on in my head lately, and when I'm not in a good mental headspace, maybe my feelings pass on to my body.
Anyway, thanks again for your encouragement. I read over it more than once and I really did feel better for reading it.
Fivestone - You look SO good!! I would kill to have a booty like yours. I have a big butt, but yours has shape- it just adds to your hourglass figure in a feminine way.
fivestone, whenever I feel bad about how I look I just take a look at an old photo of what I used to look like. It's like a slap in a face that says 'at least it's not like that anymore!'
You've come so far, I wanted to congratulate you Compared to your first thread until now. (If you wanna donate some butt, I'll take some! I will always have a flat one but with big thighs) I'm still a D cup too, still wearing the same bras I was wearing 45 lbs a go.
Maybe I'll do a 10 lbs to goal mini goal thread later today.
Okay, I had to come find some of your other posts since you said in the featherweights thread that you looked more polished in your avatar pic than in others you've posted. And, as I suspected, you're just being too hard on yourself! You look damn good, even when you think your hair's a mess! Congratulations on how far you've come, and keep up the good work!
You look so beautiful! You have a PERFECT hourglass figure. Smooth where it should be, curves where they should be. You are sooo beautiful. Congratulations to you! You have worked hard and now you can enjoy what the good Lord has given ya!!