here is a giant picture of my face starting to look less giant.
and another just normal shot of me drinking tea at a restaurant in chinatown after getting off the red eye in london. please excuse the spaced out look. i had been up for a long long time. these pics were taken in mid-may.
someone once told me my face was like a bowling ball (sure, we were kids, and kids just say those kinds of things) but it always kinda stuck with me and at times has been sorta true. i'm pleased to report that the bowling ball situation is starting to improve ever so slightly.
ok for comparison i'm actually posting a pic that i hate hate hate and haven't shown anyone. it's basically the picture that convinced me that i really need to get things under control. i couldn't believe how much larger i was than everyone else in the photo. it really shook me out of my delusion that i hadn't gotten THAT big. i had. i just couldn't see it. but everyone else here has been so brave about sharing their less flattering versions of themselves, so i figure i should suck it up and do the same. i was probably between 175 and 180 lbs.
and a close up shot of my face that same night. that one isn't bad, but it does help provide a point of comparison with the other to see some difference in the definition.
thank you so much, gretchen!! i am finally starting to emerge from a multi-year funk that accompanied the weight gain and am actually starting to feel good about things for the first time in, gosh, i don't even know when. last time i was at this weight i couldn't appreciate it cause i was trying to weigh 20 lbs less. i still am this time around, but at least i know where i've come from and can enjoy this moment.
wow you guys! just wow! thank you! i really think that things are starting to turn around for me, ever so slowly. i've only lost 20 lbs since i officially started dieting on new year's, so sometimes i get a little frustrated, but it's still 20 lbs of loss. and it's so nice to feel like i'm reclaiming my life, little by little.
Thanks for sharing, you have no idea of how I identify with your story.
I was told "potato face" by a kid and sometimes I just remember him when I see pictures of my face, I just hate them. I'm coming out of a funk as well and can relate to you in that way.
Kids are nuts. Your face has gotten smaller, as will anybody's when they lose weight, but you were never a bowling ball. You look great! You're really quite beautiful.
thank you so much everyone! your comments have really helped to boost my self esteem.
and renacer, it's amazing how those thoughtless comments from childhood really get internalized and stick with you. i joke about it now, but i think it must've really hurt me. though in reality it was probably more a statement about my having a rounder asian face since i wasn't especially overweight as a child. but i guess we all interpret things how we will.
more face, less bowling ball
