So sorry Shannon..... that does sound awful but at least it is done for another year.
Allison-- we don't keep a water bowl inside for that reason. It is outside and when they need water, they go to the door to go out and get it. I hope you're okay!!
It is 10:30 in the morning and I am already angry and edgy. I am another who fights with daylight savings time, so that started me off unpleasant. The birthday party is over and we all survived, but the petty dismissal and politely veiled smiles over whispered condemnations and snide, sideways looks when people thought I couldn't see wore on me. So, I ate junk, because surely that would make it better, right? This morning I feel pretty terrible physically, I'm mad at XW for some weekend scheduling shenanigans that have resulted in us losing close to half our weekend with him (dh was to pick him up from her where she kept him last night early this morning, they aren't here yet) because she made plans for them during our time, and I'm tired and hate stupid dst. Work got complicated during the days last week, so I ended up late most every day. I didn't have time to exercise Thurs or Fri with running around for party prep, didn't work out yesterday and likely won't today. I haven't been sleeping at night from stress so haven't been able to get up early for exercise then. I'm again hanging on to my life with white knuckles trying to get from day to day. I think I'm not just dieting on a short leash, I'm living on a short string and constantly being bashed into the paddle ball board held in the big hand of some giant pointing and laughing as I flail around and bounce back and forth.
On the upside, my parents came to the party. Mom isn't great with kids or crowds so they were going to skip and come up today, but I wanted them to want to come to the party. It was nice having more of my people there, helped with the isolation at the event. Even though I book and pay for the room, buy the decorations, set up the tables and decorate, buy all the tableware and games and do most of the legwork I always feel alone and ostracized at these events. I'm reminded at every possible opportunity that I'm not welcome in casual conversation with XW or her friends and family, though I'm perfectly okay as a pack mule or a money source as needed. Mom and dad were there and on my side. And, Dh is always very on my side, but he always ends up keeping things moving with the kids and can't be right by me, and I'm an adult and can fight my own battles, though it is hard at this event when I'm trying to keep peaceful for DSS.
What is it about Monday morning enthusiasm for weight loss/maintenance? If I could be as inspired and motivated on Saturday nights as I am on Monday mornings, I'd have it made. Instead, I'm sitting here, a few pounds above my red line.
I got a call this morning that my lunch date with a friend needs to be rescheduled. Although I'm sad not to be able to catch up with her, I'm not sad about being able to eat my regular lunch of veggies and protein instead of navigating a restaurant menu with its myriad temptations.
I head to Oregon for a wedding the weekend after this one - the 22nd-24th - and I'm determined to be completely OP for the next 11 days. Partially to lose a couple of more pounds before I go, of course, but mostly just to prove to myself that I can do it. Also, I'd rather not have to squeeze into the dress I'd like to wear or worry about popping a zipper!
I'm watching my scale move up.
Awareness can suck sometimes.
My goal for this evening: no more food in my mouth
No matter what
But yes to tea. Very yes.
We are, as a single family, significantly impacting the financial well being of our nations' Heath Care system. At the end if this month I will tally all of our visits to all of our various practitioners.
I must have done something right last night. Met my BFF and her DH for happy hour. Lots of sushi, but I didn't use much soy sauce. My weight is unchanged from yesterday. I was really expecting a jump up, so I'm happy!
I was home sick yesterday, and after talking to me for just a few words this morning my boss told me to stay home again today. I think I'm about to be asleep, if I could make my eyes stop watering. Bah.
I was home sick yesterday, and after talking to me for just a few words this morning my boss told me to stay home again today. I think I'm about to be asleep, if I could make my eyes stop watering. Bah.
Shannon, are you feeling better ? I know it has been several days that you have been sick, have you seen a doctor ?
This weekend has been terrible. My BF and I have spent the last 3 days talking about breaking up. Nothing dramatic, no fighting, just an acknowledgement that we're probably not right for each other long term. We've been together almost exactly a year and this HURTS. He's one of my best friends and a great guy.
I thought today would be the day we made things final and split up, but in the end he asked for a little more "thinking time" before we made a final decision. So I'm all torn up.
I'm not proud, but I've turned to Oreos and ice cream - lots of Oreos and ice cream. And some other junk. And now my stomach hurts and my head hurts and my heart hurts.
I'm sorry for the whining. I know there are worse problems in the world and on this forum. But I needed to get this out there.
Jen, you are not whining, I would recommend instead of Oreos with the ice cream, Hot Fudge can't guarantee it will take the pain away but sometimes we just need a little comfort food.
Oh, Bargoo, thank you. Hot fudge - I like your style. Of course, I think if I tried that at this moment my stomach might just split open, I'm THAT overstuffed.
Jen, hoping things work out (ultimately) the way it's best for u.
When I had that scenario with my now husband after his extra thinking time we got engaged. Still married.
Speaking of ice cream, I had mine with pie underneath it. Lots of both.
Downloading an calorie app this am. Thinking I will spring for the daily plate as that is what I used for my loss (40)
I have one son with a diagnosed issue, one son with an issue being resolved with Surg, a biopsy on my own self scheduled.
But I am I training for a half marathon that happens in may.
