saef, she gave us the key to the castle, so to speak, but navigating and mapping, and learning to live in it is up to us.
bargoo, I still love a massive breakfast! 3 egg omelet, stuffed with all the possible veggies (maybe ham, maybe not) and loads of Swiss, or a pile of corned beef hash with eggs on top, American fries ... not so much the sweet stuff or carby stuff like pancakes or waffles. I am a total protein hound in the morning. I only do that if there's a lot of manual labor or very hard play to follow that day. Come to think of it ... I never have snacking issues on those days. Is it because I stay busy and don't have time, or is that perhaps a way of eating I need to explore some more? Maybe I'm an IFer and don't know it.
Buffets...I really dislike them. I won't go to any of the myriad of Chinese buffets that have popped up around here. We have a Home Town Buffet that I've never stepped into. That said, I have had the buffet at one of the local casinos and was pleasantly surprised at the selection. One can dine there and not go overboard (except for the ubiquitous bread pudding--something you just can't get everywhere).
Funny about the searching thing. I don't know if I am in search of anything. I get pleasure out of food, and that's one reason I enjoy cooking. While nowhere close to being a "foodie" I do enjoy making scrumptious meals for my family. I do admit that there are some things that I prepare that are less than stellar in the fat department (read: cheese). But there are a fair amount of things that although extremely healthy, go over quite well with everyone. I always keep in mind the need for the right mixture of protein/veggies/carbs/whatever and an eye for color on the plate.
I have been thinking about "searching" I sometimes go and stand in front of the open refrigerator, what am I looking for, I just stand there and stare. i am not really hungry. I might do that several times. I have decided I am not hungry, I am bored. Maybe it is some other emotional state but I am sure it is not physical hunger. I can't say I do that often but I do it sometimes.
Well, I can now say I've TRIED 3 weeks at 1200 cals/day. Simply does not work for me - I came home from the pool last night and absolutely gorged on every high-protein edible item I had in the house. No sugar, no salt, no chips or crackers - I went through a huge chicken breast like a buzzsaw, several handfuls of nuts, a cheese stick, and even plain yogurt. And lost half a pound overnight. Okay, I get it. I'm not gonna make it two more weeks like that to July 4th - the experiment is officially over, and I'm going back to my 1700 cal average targets. It's ludicrous to get greedy and try to lose faster on less, when I can do what worked to take off 24 pounds 3 years ago without any sort of suffering. What was I thinking?
I sometimes go and stand in front of the open refrigerator, what am I looking for, I just stand there and stare. i am not really hungry. I might do that several times.
Yes, that's it. I'm trying to decide whether, for me, it's like inventorying or even gloating over the hoard. Like, "Hey, it's there if I want it." There is something mindless in it. My feelings seem to shut off. I am not quite inhabiting my body. Whatever it is, I don't think it's good, because if someone catches me doing it, I feel I've been "caught" engaging in some kind of socially unacceptable behavior.
Interesting. I've caught DH doing what *looks* like pantry or refrigerator surfing, but he actually IS taking inventory. The difference is that he's thinking about what he can combine to cook next, be it immediately, the next day, or the next week; the eating part is secondary. Me, if I'm doing this sort of behavior, the goal is to find something that needs zero preparation beyond perhaps removing a wrapper. There's a bit of an epiphany here, actually - when I graze or eat mindlessly, it has to be something that's a single ingredient and can be eaten out of hand.
I should take inventory! My biggest problem is that I find the recipe I want to make, buy the perishables that I know I need and rely on the fact that I have a huge pantry of non-perishables that should round out the ingredient list. That is until I actually open the pantry door and start searching! Thankfully this often happens before DH leaves the office, so I can call him and ask him to bring home the can of this or that that I have allowed to go missing from my stock. Either that or I send DS to the store.
I used to do the refrigerator "search" when I was bored. Now I know there isn't much in there that would make a good snack (except that cheese). I know it is boredom that makes me do it. I either have to leave the room or sit down in front of the TV and pick up my crosswords and then I'm to busy to search.
And as for calories, while I would love to try for 1200 a day, it is impossible IMO. 1500 is do-able but 1700 is more like what reality is for me. It does make losing very slooooow.
My search doesn't result in my eating anything it is just a mindless exercise of some kind. Nothing has changed since I was there 10 minutes previously. Nothing added or taken away so why am I there ?
I am doing deep breathing, trying not to explode in a rage in front of everyone around me.
Feeling extremely dumped on. Trying to be grateful for a job. No matter how much they f me over. That's the cost of a living these days.
I am doing deep breathing, trying not to explode in a rage in front of everyone around me.
Feeling extremely dumped on. Trying to be grateful for a job. No matter how much they f me over. That's the cost of a living these days.
Good for you coming here and not bingeing. Whatever has happened is probably nothing you did but what "they" did or neglected to do. Sometimes life is not fair, that is the truth of it. I know you can come through this OK.
Good for you coming here and not bingeing. Whatever has happened is probably nothing you did but what "they" did or neglected to do. Sometimes life is not fair, that is the truth of it. I know you can come through this OK.
I did binge on Sunday. Actually followed thru w/purchasing 3 bags of candy at Walgreens, while I was there running an errand. Ate about 1/3 - 1/2 each bag. Still trying to get back to baseline. Still 3 pounds up.
Have better control now but heart racing and I'm pissed, defeated, trying to find grace.
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Kitty, BTDT, i found that eating 4 donuts did not help the situation and only made me mad at myself.
Don't let "them" (Co workes.supervisors) have power over your food decisions.
Maybe I'm an IFer and don't know it.
Okay, I get it. I'm not gonna make it two more weeks like that to July 4th - the experiment is officially over, and I'm going back to my 1700 cal average targets. It's ludicrous to get greedy and try to lose faster on less, when I can do what worked to take off 24 pounds 3 years ago without any sort of suffering. What was I thinking? 
I'm sorry that you are being beaten around today.
