i am in desperate need to find my motivation again. to date i have lost 50 lbs. i'm 30 weeks into my LA weight loss program. and i have been stuck at this 50lbs mark for 6 WEEKS!
it all started the beginning of may when i was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis. i was showing everyone around me that i was strong, and i am. but deep down inside, i'm crushed. i just turned 24. my hopes and dreams of being a mom are not only harder (because i also have PCOS), but now have to work around this STUPID MS. i have been going to a fertility clinic here in winnipeg, which is helping me alot, but i'm just not interested. I don't know whats right or wrong for my body anymore.
just recently i lost my job, so that is making things harder for me. i am getting unemployment insurance from the government for 41weeks (plus a extra 15 weeks of sick benefits if needed) which is not bad for my money issues, but i have NO motiviation. my weight loss has been hit the hardest. the day i was diagnosed, i thought i deserved to go to McDonalds. i didn't have a double big mac like anyone would, i just had a simple double cheeseburger, but thats where it started. i give into my cravings all the time, and i know thats not right, but i just can't seem to find the motivation to do anything. and then on top of that i'm stuck at home for most of the day....this morning i woke up and said to myself i'm going to get this house clean...and yup! you guessed it, i have yet to get off my ***. i just need to find the good in things and move forward. but how?!?!!?