I have these random bouts of depression. and they usually get deleted on this board. and im having one right now because i still havent seen any improvement in my weight, im pretty much broke (only have 100 dollars that i saved from my last job), i lost the only job i could get @ 15, and did i mention im gaining weight by the day?
I want to start modeling because im 5'10 and am told i have to face for it. I could really get out of a rough spot for everyone if i did but once again, my weight is holding me back. I just moved to florida barely 4 monthes ago and im just pretty stressed out about everything...
so i dont really know what to do.
I was wondering, "hypothetically" (cough), lets say i didnt eat anything but oatmeal in the morning all day for maybe 2 monthes or so. i know my metabolism would slow down but what if i drunk green tea as well? every hour or so? lots of water and chewing gum. would that keep my metabolism in check?
Basically what im asking here, and i know this isnt the best, but whats the best way to keep my metabolism in check without actually eating? i know this sounds pretty bad but its like the only thing right now that i think would help "hypothetically and all" me keep my mood in check.
so it would go something like this
Breakfast- 1 gallon of water
big bowl of oatmeal
a multi vitamin
ALL day i would be drinking water.
back from school- green tea, water, water
maybe a calcium supplement.
dinner- water water BIG pitcher of green tea
oh im exercising 30 minutes a day.
basically my goal is to drink 2-3 gallons of water a day. Im actually doing this more to gain control over my eating if anything. and shrink my stomach. all this stress is making me over eat. so as much as some of u think im obsessed with gaining weight, i hate gaining weight, but i hate more that i cant even stop myself from eating. that sucks
oh and did i mention i weigh 147 now (almost 150?) geez if i keep going at this rate, i will be over weight. I cant believe just last year i was MAINTAINING 125.
gosh i feel like everyone on this board is so much stronger then me and im just so weak. u guys, even though im at a "healthy" weight (w/e that means) you guys are doing soo much better then i am. it sucks that the only thing that works for me is not eating much at all but i guess its what i choose.
wish me luck. i think this may actually work out because its inexpensive, simple and easy to follow.
just until i can do something better anyway... like find a job to pay for healthy food and stuff. sucks when your parents lose their job, thats for sure.
EDIT: u know what i realized, they have journals on here for this kind of stuff. LOL well now i know