hi all...
I am new here. Just found this site today and could use some support. I am 37 5'4'' and 170 lbs. This is what I weighed after I gave birth 10 years ago to number 2. I had lost twenty pounds, got down to 150 and slowly it has creeped back. I try, oh do I try but I guess it is never enough. I look in the mirror and am truly disgusted by what I see. How could I have let myself get like this?
I exercise everyday. I do tae bo and aerobics tapes with weights called The Firm.
I do so well with not eating junk food and gave up pop but all it takes is one slip up and all the good I did in one week is sabotaged in one day. One of my problems is that when it comes to sweets I have no willpower. This last week I literally had no junk and had lots of water. Then I was at a party and ate THREE pieces of cake with two scoops of ice cream! I don't know why I just can't be satisfied with one piece of anything.
My self esteem is in the garbage. I want to barf when I get dressed in the mirror and see myself. Then I realize nothing fits me in my closet. Just a year ago I could wear an 8. Now the fat pants, the size 12 are snug.
Nothing dramatic has occurred in my life to allow this. I eat better than I ever have. Maybe those college days are doing a payback now.
Well I am sure I am quite the downer to everyone here but maybe once I get on the right track I can be more inspirational.
Paw