[newfiesara]

Okay. So I haven't posted here in quite some time - the last time being February of 2003.

My name is Sara, I'm currently 21 (will be 22 in less than 3 weeks!), and I weight 316.5 lbs. I am 5'10". I am sick of being fat! Although I've been told that I "carry it well" and that people "never would have guessed [I] was over 300 lbs!", I don't care. I have a plethora of health problems that are seemingly unexplained by anything but being overweight. Liver enzyme problems, polycystic ovary syndrome, underactive thyroid, as well as a bunch of mental problems.. of course.

The last time I posted, I was 293 lbs, down from 310. I was feeling wonderful and more live than I had ever felt.. and then boom! I quit college, I got into a huge depression, and I refused to even think about weight loss. I ended up homeless, and with nowhere to turn. Well, I haven't been homeless for close to a year (thank heavens), and I am committed to losing weight again. In January, I started working out, and have lost a total of 22.5 lbs.. This, of course, leaves me at 6.5 lbs above my LAST starting weight, meaning that I gained 40 lbs back.

GUH.

I'm sick of feeling like this, and I'm sick of making excused for myself. Excuses such as "I don't have a gym membership" or "I want some ice cream though..". Bull shiiit. The lot of it!

This time, I am going to just eat better.. not worry about counting calories as much as getting the proper amount of water, and keeping a ton of exercise.

[kellyjoiii]

Welcome back Sara...you took the right step right? Happy Birthday early...ohhhh to be 22 again I too have been told I wear it well...etc. and too am SO SICK OF BEING FAT!!!!!!!!I think we all fall off the wagon many times and it takes us a while to climb back up (that wagon is a high one here) I am finally at my first start weight too...(I have finally made it back to what I was two yrs ago...) and am incorporating walking into my life...I really dont count calories only watch my carbs (mostly the sugar) and stay away from bread and potatoes....I too have pcos and am on glucophage for that...how about you? Good luck!

[angel-eyes]

Hi you two!!

I think we've all been at one weight, lost some, thrown in the towel only to find ourselves back at the original weight (or higher)!! But the main thing is NOT TO GIVE UP....Every day is a challenge to be your best and to do a better job than you did before. I know if I don't journal repeatedly throughout the day, I lose track of my pts and before you know it I'll have something I really shouldn't. Sort of a 'self sabotage'. I"ve been coming to this site for a while now I really don't want to think about life without it!! The motivation, friendship and recipies are too wonderful!!! I am a SAHM of 2 boys, ages 7 and 11. I find excercise mostly boring and at times, difficult to do. But in all honesty....I still make myself accountable to go to the gym whether I want to or not. Something...ANYTHING...is better than doing NOTHING!! It is not an option!! I have to do this for me!!! Monday's are my weigh in and today I lost another 1.5 lbs for a total of 16 lbs. SLOW AND STEADY WINS THE RACE!!! Good luck to you both!!!

[kellyjoiii]

I agree completely...I look at it at anything is better than nothing too. I weigh all the time but mostly my weigh days are fridays (I tend to keep to it better over the weekend!) and I am so happy to watch this number go down! I have to do this for me! Thanks for the support and congrats on the 1.5 lbs!

[newfiesara]

Thank you ladies..

[kclay61]

Sarah - I know EXACTLY what you're talking about - When I tell people how much I weight, OR, they weigh me at the Drs. office, they always say, OMG you don't look like you weight "that much" UGH! I'm 5'8 with big bone structure - I have German in my blood so I guess that is where I get it. Welcome back and good luck, to us all.

[angel-eyes]

I get that too....what? no way....you don't weigh that much!
yeah, yeah....heard it all. A few years ago when I worked in retail, I had a regular customer come up to me and ask me when my baby was due. I could have killed her!!! With each of my pregnancy's I've never lost that much weight, hmmm, maybe 10-15 lbs. HELLO? The baby was that much!! Oh I was doing the breastfeeding thing and everything, I swear I didn't eat that much and as soon as the weather was nice, I was out for morning walks with the baby. Obviously something wasn't quite right, but now with me home not working....its my time to shine!!!

[angel-eyes]

Hey Kclay61.... am I reading your numbers right?....mom to 2 sets of twins?
GOD BLESS YOU!!!

[kclay61]

Yes Angel Eyes you ARE reading that right.

[angel-eyes]

So listen to this.....I just came back from my annual physical (with a new doctor) since we've recently moved and she was saying that ww's is a great program and losing weight should be a slow process.....but......you should only be eating about 1200-1500 calories. I guessed at 25 pts that it might be closer to 2000 calories and she was "uh no...only at 1200 will you lose weight" Anyone figure out how many calories per point range? Maybe I was totally clueless as to the calories per point range I eat, but I guessed at 5 fruits/veggies (400 cal)....2-3 dairy (400 cal)....protien (600 cal) and starches (300 cal) and fats (100cal) Okay, while figuring this out just now, my tallies are a little off but still over the 1200 calories. Any thoughts or comments on this?

[FlowerJenni1022]

Angel~ When I was doing the points thing the first time, it seemed to me that around 50 calories was equal to 1 point in most cases. So 1200 calories would be about 24 points the way I figure it. That was when I had the slide rule card, but I've lost it, and now I am doing WW online. Anyway, my docotor says that it takes a reduction of 3500 calories from your normal eating pattern to lose 1 pound. 3500 calories=1 pound. No wonder it takes forever right?!?!?! Take it easy!
~Jenni