Heya welcome
Good luck in everything! It sounds like you've had a really hard time with food, but I'm sure you'll come through it, you sound really determined. There's lots of great people on 3fc to support you and I'll start by being the first of many to tell you that you do deserve to have a figure you're happy with
I've not been anorexic myself but I do turn to food for emotional reasons, I think most people here do, so I have some idea what you're going through.
Dill