Hi, I read your story and it sounded all too familiar! I've yo-yo dieted my whole life for reasons I won't go into. Every time I gained weight back, I also gained some additional pounds too! I had a doctor one time tell me I screwed my metabolism up but no one tells me how to fix it! I'm now 58 and I weigh more than I ever have. I also have some medical issues that the doctors can't seem to figure out. All I know is, I feel terrible. I'm in pain all the time and I'm tired...very, very tired. If I could talk to my younger self, I would say...it doesn't matter what the scale says, just eat in moderation, keep moving and never give up. I had it stuck in my head that I should see that blasted scale move every week! Well, guess what? It doesn't! Then if I wasn't at my "goal weight", I considered myself a failure. Guess what? I was SO wrong!! So VERY wrong! If I didn't have these unreal ideas and unrealistic expectations back then, I wouldn't be at the weight I am right now. I know it. It's all in the head!! It's how you think about it! I wasn't meant to be thin by no means. In fact, when I was at my lowest weight as an adult (only due to strict diet and maniac exercising), my mother and doctor told me I looked too thin!! The people who always told me I was fat are now telling me I'm too thin?? Yet, my weight was "normal" for my height! Another time I was at a "near normal" weight, my doctor told me I was "fine" yet I was still classified as "obese" by the American Medical Association. Huh??? No wonder my head was all screwed up! So if I had the chance for a "do over". I would eat what I want but in moderation. I would drink what I want but in moderation. I would only do the exercise I want to do in moderation (not like a maniac). This is LIFE. Enjoy your baby. Take him/her for walks. Dance with him/her. Play with him/her. That is time better spent than any old stinky gym. Enjoy your life...in moderation. Everything is best in moderation. I'm sorry if this is coming off as more of a lecture than it should be. That's not my intent. It's just something I'm very passionate about. It's too late for me but I would love to help someone from preventing the same mistakes I made. You WILL fit in your wedding dress and you will be a beautiful bride! You don't have to be "skinny" for that.
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