Hello!!
I just discovered this forum while looking up a review for a product I wanted to try. I have had some success with forums for other issues in the past and I would like to try this one. I am looking for some support.
Eight years ago, I decided, foolishly, that I wanted to have a baby. I got off the pill, that I had been on since I was 14, and within 8 months, I'd gained 60 pounds. Still having not gotten my period, I was quickly diagnosed with PCOS. Since then, I have gained an additional 20 pounds after having a child. I am at my wits end. I used to be this cute, thin life-loving girl and now I barely ever want to leave my house. My son is now 3 and I don't want him to have "that" mom. I want to be the mom who goes out and enjoys life. Me and my family may be going on my dream vacation to California in the next few months and I want to feel GOOD on vacation, and mostly, I don't want to look back at pictures and be like "oh, yeah, I was fat then".
I've tried a lot of different things - most of them quick fixes. I tried Atkins, I lost 7 pounds and wanted to kill myself from lack of food. I then tried "eating right and going to the gym" but what I was doing was overworking myself and depriving myself. Then I tried a made-up diet where I ate the same 2 meals for each meal every day (alternating between two different meals for breakfast, two for dinner and two for lunch). I lost 20 pounds. So then I started branching out a little and the weight loss stopped, I got discouraged and quit. Then I started another diet with a woman I knew who lost 170 pounds. We were doing it right - eating clean, 6 small meals a day - but I had a hard time eating so much. And then I went through a REALLY stressful time and gave up. Then I tried Weight Watchers, lost 5 pounds. Then I went on a diet with my husband who ended up losing 25, and I lost 4.
And every time I go on these "lifestyle changes" I tell myself this is the last time, that I can't do it again.
But this time, I really hope it's different. I am going back to a similar eating habit as I did with the friend - having 4 small meals a day - 6 is just TOO much for me! but this time I'm implementing what I never have before - exercise. I have a treadmill and I plan to use it for hours a day while I watch TV. For the past 2 months, I have been going back and forth from eating right, to eating crap. But I notice the gaps between eating right seem to be getting smaller and smaller. So I am hoping that I am starting to make eating right a lifestyle thing. I've also discovered how eating shitty makes me feel vs how eating right makes me feel.
I really want it, sometimes I can almost taste it, but it's the getting from HERE to THERE that I just really struggle with. I LOVE food. This time, I'm also trying PGX and I bought some portion control tools which I am hoping will help me.
Today, I am telling you all how much I weigh - not even my husband knows. As of this evening, I am 222.8. My goal for right now, is 180. My ultimate goal is 160. I start tomorrow. WISH ME LUCK. And I look forward to chatting with you all!!
PS: I'm a writer, so I apologize for the novel!