The Fat Bridesmaid
So, I've been trying to diet a little, but totally failing. I found this site while looking up information on Weight Watchers. The plan is to try to do Weight Watchers without actually subscribing to the program (I can't afford an additional 60+ monthly).
The hurdles I'll need to overcome include my depression, which I'm currently taking medication for, and having snack foods in the house. I've been successful at cutting out soda even though it's been in the house, but sweets tend to get me cheating and I'm not forcing him to diet with me save for meals I cook. Keeping a steady diet is probably my largest problem. I will go a day or two barely eating anything and then a day or two where I just eat a lot of unhealthy stuff. I've tried Atkins, the HCG diet, and as much as it's horrible to admit, actually throwing up food I've eaten.
The major turning point for me is that I'm in my sister's wedding in two weeks. I had wanted to lose weight for it to at least be smaller, but even that went unsuccessfully. I'd lost five pounds and then gain it back the next week, so really no change at all. This is mostly due to my internal dialogue of "Oh, I'll start that work out program tomorrow", and then tomorrow saying the same thing, or "oh, no more sweets after this one" and then saying the same with the next sweet thing I eat. I'm still in the wedding, but I'm definitely going to be the fat bridesmaid, and that has me feeling worse about my weight than I typically do.
I'm hoping that by signing up for a site that serves as a support group I can keep on a healthy diet, and maybe keep myself more accountable. Anxiety/depression issues tend to result in me avoiding actual social situations (like meetups), so a forum may be a good medium. I use to be very athletic when I was younger (in middle school/high school) and I would like to get back to where I feel good about myself.
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